Losing a loved one can be one of the most challenging experiences we face. I recently lost my beloved spouse of 10 years on December 19, 2024, and the pain and sense of loss have been overwhelming.
During this difficult time, I reflected on the story of Job, who endured unimaginable suffering yet remained faithful. His words, “Though he slay me, yet will I trust in Him” (Job 13:15), resonated deeply with me. In one of my many moments of sorrow, I muttered, “God help me,” and in that quiet moment, God reminded me of the significance of my son’s name, Ezra, which means “God’s helper.” This realization brought me comfort, and I realized that God was indeed with me, even in my darkest moments.
As a Christian, I acknowledge the pain of grief, but I also recognize that my faith provides hope.
This hope enables me to navigate the challenges of loss, even when it feels like the pain will never subside. My experience has taught me that trusting God doesn’t mean the pain disappears, but it gives me the strength to face it.
Trusting God doesn’t mean having all the answers or understanding everything. I still don’t understand why my husband had to die, but I choose to trust in God even when life doesn’t make sense. This trust gives me hope that because my beloved husband knew and loved God, I will see him again. My goal is to keep Heaven in focus, awaiting the day when God calls me home. We will all leave this world someday, but for now, as long as we are alive, God is not done with us yet. I hope sharing my story encourages others walking through similar valleys. No matter what life brings, God is with you.
